"I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become. I don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life, but I'm afraid to leave. And I'm just tired, you know? I'm just so tired of being afraid."
That's actually Michelle Pfeiffer, of all people. Pretty much sums up the last gazillion seconds of my life. I guess things always move forward in some way or another, and I think maybe I've been looking for life to stay PUT for like five seconds, tyvm. So there it lies, move forward, stay behind; get thrown off-balance, catch yourself right before you fall; maybe its all the same in the end, a strange circus-act of unknowing and understanding everything far too late.
