"i wiped the snow off my face. There was someone waiting for me. And that's the only thing that stops us from freezing solid"- Sergei Lukyaneko

Slowly but surely I am thawing out. Thank you for never giving up on me.

phos- + Greek phainein to show ; date: circa 1860; : a luminous impression due to excitation of the retina

"Wouldn't you like the moon to tattoo you? Imagine that, eh, being inked by the point of the moon, it would be so glowing. Who would look at me again if I had one of those? I'd be too bright, wouldn't I?"

(Catherine Owen, Cusp/detrius, 2006)

"If my devils are to leave me, I am afraid my angels will take flight as well." -Rilke

http://www.marciwashington.com/paintings.html

Meanwhile....

"I'm afraid to be alone, I'm afraid not to be alone. I'm afraid of what I am, what I'm not, what I might become, what I might never become. I don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life, but I'm afraid to leave. And I'm just tired, you know? I'm just so tired of being afraid."

That's actually Michelle Pfeiffer, of all people. Pretty much sums up the last gazillion seconds of my life. I guess things always move forward in some way or another, and I think maybe I've been looking for life to stay PUT for like five seconds, tyvm. So there it lies, move forward, stay behind; get thrown off-balance, catch yourself right before you fall; maybe its all the same in the end, a strange circus-act of unknowing and understanding everything far too late.